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Finally, there were several participants who did not feel Scully had a huge influence on
their sexual orientation. However, Scully may have influenced some in different ways. Sarah
explains that Scully "was a big part of me accepting that I am allowed to take up space in the
world as a woman, and as a gay woman. Scully works in a male-dominated field and most
women, myself included, grow up in what feels like a male-dominated world, but Scully never
apologized for who she was. She gave me the courage to be who I am." Others felt unsure, as did
Rachel, 23: "I had a fixation on Dana Scully as a child, and looking back I genuinely can't
discern whether it was attraction to her or the desire to be her or to be like her."
3.5 Gillian Anderson’s Influence
Again, many respondents gave Gillian credit as having an influence on their sexual
orientation. As in the section above, she often came up as being one of the participants' first
crushes or the catalyst for the discovery of their sexual orientation. Flo, 21, says “Gillian was
definitely my first proper girl crush that I actually acknowledged, while Jacqui remarks, “I think
just looking back, I realized that straight girls weren't just staring at pictures of Gillian Anderson
in their spare time.” On a similar note, Anya, 22, says, "Gillian Anderson made me think, 'Huh,
she's pretty. What if I wasn't straight?'" Victoria explicitly says Anderson was her awakening: “I
always tell people that Gillian Anderson was my bisexual awakening. The first time I saw her
validated and solidified my attraction to women.” Mary, 26, felt similarly to Victoria and says
that “Gillian Anderson actually made me realize I am a lesbian. I was 12/13 and looking around
the posters on my bedroom wall. All I could see was Gillian. And I remember thinking: "Well,
seems you like girls. Okay then." Finally, Vanessa, 22, declares that “saying you fancy Gillian
Anderson is also part of lesbian culture now.”